Peace

For many months now I have been toiling over what to pray for. As I was teaching my primary class on Sunday it was revealed.
Joseph Smith had an argument with Emma one day then went on to translate the Book of Mormon. He found that he was unable to translate so he went to pray. He prayed to have peace with his wife. He went back to her and had his peace then was able to transcribe again.(this is not word for word)

So i almost began to cry in front of my class because that was a message for me from the Lord. I need to be at peace especially with my husband. All of my internal turmoil can be settled if I just pray for peace. Last night I did. I prayed and sobbed and prayed only for peace and now I know what my Heavenly Father wants me to pray for... peace. I am slowly seeing more clearly and have much more to learn from this situation, but peace is with me.

I now understand why the Lord puts us through these trails he wants us to learn. Such simple things, yet so complicated we make it, forcing against what should come so easy to us. Then when we comprehend what was to be learned it is so clear.
May someone out there learn from my peace experience

She works hard for the money.....

and the family pays the price. Most of you know I am now working full-time so our family can survive these crappy times. I am very grateful to have a job that has benefits and a steady income. Just yesterday I realized that I need to acknowlege that it may be like this for longer than I thought. I am not GOD nor will I wver be able to change the universe. I can't make things happen and certainly can't waste my thoughts and energy on trying. It is what it is ...yes I am very sad and cry a lot, but chose this life and picked my path. So cry I will and laugh it away becasue it is out of my hands.

Have a great week and be thankful you are in the position you are. Becasue .....

IT IS WHAT IT IS

btw a nice friend thought of me today and gave me a palmtree paper weight for my little cubical desk. Thanks ..... it will make it easier just looking at it and knowing someone is pulling for me during my down times

To be or not to be?

That is the question of the week.

Let me back up and give the whole story.

When we got back from our holiday excursion I saw a position for a Health Coach on my email. So I said to the dear Lord above, it is in your hands and if they call me you gotta give me the strength to do it. Three days later the call came...me why would they call me? I am a Gap Girl, definitely qualified for the position, but me? The hours sucked to say the least 2p-10p. He asks me does this sound like something you would be interested in? The words came out before I knew what was happening...Sure! Sounds Great! ....Oh my I forgot 4 kids, but that was after the fact I had hung up.

I wrote down the pros and cons talked to my peeps and thought hmmm.....steady income good pay excellent benefits and boost in self-esteem. When the hubby hasn't had an interview in over 3 months it is almost stupidity not to go for it.

Today, I sweat about 10 lbs before during and after the interview. Hem of the skirt torn but that was the only glitch. I think I did well and thank all of you for your support and prayers. If it is to be the Lord will present it to me and the comforter will let me know. So, I am just going to let the ball roll and see where it stops.

Change in coming

as for the pix Johnny liked it so I put it on....

Happy Family

God has blessed us with 4 wonderfully happy children who brightened my day today.

So live tomorrow as it is you last and what a difference it makes.

A special thanks to my helper in life Cindy who suggested I think like I had cancer..again..and today was my last day.

What really counts clean dishes or happy faces?

Murphy's Law?

"Whatever can go wrong, will go wrong," or, "Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way." The saying is sometimes referred to as Sod's law or Finagle's law.

Quantization Revision of Murphy's Laws

Everything goes wrong all at once

I am not sure what Murphy's Law is or if that what this family has, but it seems to be knocking at our door and I think we are contaminated. Dishwasher broke and for those who don't know the latest is I broke my ankle or actually a ligament pulled a piece of bone off the bone. Pain is all I know and drugs are my friend.

My stupid boot got caught on the edge of the driveway and no hands to catch the fall, of course I had a dress on and the missionaries and children were standing there watching and hearing the lovely kind words coming from my trap. Oh I thought that it was a bad sprain, but my dear friend insisted I go get an x-ray. Sure enough...well at least it is a removable cast and I should heal in a couple of weeks.

So my question is this Murphy's Law and if it is does faith the sanitizer for it. I know that I am trying and feel grateful for what we have and that we are in a nice safe warm home. I just will have to laugh at the next thing Murphy brings to our door step cause the GAME IS ON!

Thanksgiving plans ruined

....all because of a computer glitche. Oh, the GAP computer system did not take my request for time off that I put in 3 weeks ago. So therefore I have to work this week and for those who did not see my lovely face and shining spirit today at church..achem gag.. I was at work. Yes, 7am busting boxes for the GAP makin' pennies to feed my kids and my habit(dc).

Why? What is the freakin' lesson from this? Don't spend time with your family?

Now I have to plan Thanksgiving dinner for the kids and Brian. Ugh, does anyone know where the nearest soup kitchen is?

hi there

I guess you could say that a little heater can make you feel a little better. I work 6 days a week and at the end of a cold day like today I sit and watch tv with a little heater blasting beside me. Can't say it makes my problems go away, but it warms me up.
I do have a husband that puts up with my selfishness, sitting in my room under a blanket alone with the tv on a Sat night. Well I am a working woman that does justify it don't ya think.

My thanks today are my kids are healthy very healthy thank you Lord for that.

New Posting

I am not sure why I am even writing this enrty. Maybe because I need to express myself and I want to let it all out. I am not sure how our family has survived these past few months being unemployeed. If you think your life sucks try not having and income and not knowing how you are going to feed your kids tomorrow or put clothes on them or keep them in a warm house. Yes I know everyone had their troubles, but these are mine and I have a right to be upset and fustrated and mad and sad and angry and troubled and hopeless and wondering, and I guess thankful in the end. I am thankful that we are still alive and healthy and somewhat together. I am grateful for all those angels who work for my savior, who pray for my family and give their unconditional love and support to my family. It is mightly hard being on this side of the track, it is easier for me to give then recieve.
I am not a holiday person which makes it 10x worse going through this challenge in our situation. I am too old for this and if it wasn't for my kids I might not be sticking around. So I go on trying to be in the moment for that is all I can do